Encapsulated Delusion
"Reasoning is destroyed when the mind is bewildered. One falls down when reasoning is destroyed"
Sunday, January 28, 2007

wednesday - sunday with mom here in KL

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me
even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong (yes you did) And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
(A song for mama - Boyz II men)

mommm, missing you already. hahaha..its been 6 hours since u left. aduh..pingin pulang kerumah. talking about my mother, she is my superhero. i'm a huge fan of her. she's a housewife, as well as mother. She works and has business. She helps my sister to do her homeworks. She talks to me everytime i need her suggestion. She makes my dad happy all the time. She barely complains about stuff. She helps anyone who come to see her. The most important part is, she is my mother. I'm lucky to have her as my mom, and im sure most of us feel the same. so anyways, im very hungry. Therefore,, i should go down and eat. It means au revoir, for an hour or so ;)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
He was always such a nice boy
The quiet one
With good intentions
He was down for his brother
Respectful to his mother
A good boybut good don't get attention
One kid with a promise
The brightest kid in school
He's not a fool
Reading books about science and smart stuffIt's not enough, no
Cause smart dont make you cool, whoa
(Stole - Kelly Rowland)

A bit of Kelly Rowland song. Realita? Yes, it is. This song desribe a person yang very smart, devoted sama keluarganya, in short, a very good individual. Tapi all of that belum cukup. Pengakuan dari peers nya dia, pengakuan bahwa dia seorang individual yang exist adalah hal terakhir yang dia ingin. Sayang, kebanyakan dari kita ketika melihat orang spt dia (stereotypes this kind of person : geek, glasses yang tebel, or nerd, whatever), saking ngerasa terlalu exist nya, then bully org2x seperti ini. end of story, the guy in this song, he commits suicide. Maybe some ppl akan heran, what the hell is he doing, kok di bully aja sampai commits suicide? Nah..tanpa kita sadari, sesuatu hal yang buat kita "biasa" belum tentu "biasa" buat orang lain. ppl itu unique. This song teaches us to menghargai every human being, ngga peduli dia nerdy as in this story or whatsoever.
Sepanjang hidup gue, some ppl said gue itu too friendly to everyone. well, that's me. walaupun gue ngga pernah berada dalam posisi yang bener2x sendiri, gue bisa ngerasain penderitaan orang orang yang sendirian. Lets see, last week @ campus, i saw a working man, sit alone in a table during lunch time. He sat there, ate his lunch and smoke his ciggar, all alone. Dalam naluri gue yang tergila, gue bisa merasa pity banget dan bahkan bisa invite buat lunch bareng di table gue dan anak2x. well, that's (not) impossible. Jaman sekarang ini, doing some kindness bisa dibilang mengherankan dan membuat orang takut, takut kalau kita punya maksud maksud tertentu.
So, anyways, cuma mau ngingetin, please do appreciate, be kind to all people u meet anywhere (okay, please do take not, jangan terlalu baik juga sih, ini irritating cuz ive been in this situation of friendship). Nobody meant to be alone, so never stop trying to be kind, cuz its what makes u worth to be with =)
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

saturday night fever, another round of espresso shot

thanks to randy dahhlingg for this The Fray's song. gue puter puter puter dan lagi dan lagi. hahaha..anyways hari ini gue mellow lagi *again???* please don't ask why cuz i will simply said i also have no idea why.mom's going to come next week on thursday. well, looking fwd to meet her. pity my dad can't make it with her and also my little sister.

okay, so, i have this crazy idea of mine: i want to quit studying. hahaha of course just dirty thought. i hate studying these days. im all brain dead, to make it simple.

i just hope that the following week will be better for me. oya, gue juga harus chase cd ost nya les chorister. gilaaa, dimana mana ngga ada . harus cari kemana lagi coba?? satu lagi: mesti kejar tayang tugas2 sebelum mama dateng. males banget ngga sih deadline dimana2x. okay, now im going to stop complaining here and there. nuit ;)

*hoping for a better tomorrow*
Monday, January 15, 2007
monday make my day ;)
today is a perfect day, so far. this morning, my design draft was approved *my lecturer even said that he like it* blah blah. so happy. and then he gave us 10 minutes break cuz we have 3 hours straight with him. alright, so i went downstairs to grab something to eat. guess what? mr.brightside was there *wink wink* hahaha. after class my group sent our paper draft to another leturer and she said its okay and we just have to do some correction. omg those three really make my day. and if ppl said they hate monday, i'll say I LOVE MONDAY !
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Hey Jude,
don't make it bad
take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

first thing i remember if i hear this song: DADDY. well, talking about my dad, sometimes he can be very annoying. but no matter how annoying he could be, he'll always be my dad and i love him so much as much as i love my mother.
kangen rumah, thats what i feel right now. anyways today i went out to buy new printer for my laptop cuz i need it. haha hope it'll be okay till the end of my study. assignments are already here to torture me everyday. well, seems my laziness still very strong so that i can't work my ass to get all done. wish me luck then ;). revoir for now.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
long time since my last posting.
im so annoyed by the fact that the wifi here still not working properly.
Thank God, today the internet is very reliable so that i can go online the whole night and i hope for forever and ever, amen. haha.
anyways assignments come like crazy! here, there, everywhere have assignments. i hope i'll be better in managing time for each since this semester will be a very short one. my mother planning to visit me this mid semester break (omg, still in february!) and i hope she will be able to make it since meeting her will be more difficult than meeting president.LMAO.
tomorrow i have 8 a.m class which is comm and culture. will i be able to get up so early? (since today my classes were from 8 a.m until 2 p.m straight without any break between). well dont, think i have to sleep now unless i want to be late for class tomorrow. SO LONG, FAREWELL. auf wiedersehen, good night ;)